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Stronger than the Strongest Affection

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Hi, my name is Sophie and I like to pretend emotions don’t exist.

Two weeks ago my days were filled with one challenge after another and by Friday night I could feel myself going into an emotional lockdown, attempting to bury every feeling in a Fort Knox-type armory with hopes that they would never surface again.

Welcome to my default setting. I am a master wall-builder. I’m pretty sure that is due to the fact that I’m scared of feelings. Scared of loving people too much and then enduring their rejection or removal from my life. Scared that God will punish me for liking someone. Scared of letting people down (even though it’s inevitable). Scared of doing things wrong. Scared of being seen. Scared of a “yes” because it seems like I only know how to trust God for a “no.”

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Freedom from our Fears – Writing on The Gospel Coalition

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I’m grateful for the opportunity to share my heart about fear on The Gospel Coalition, but what I’m most thankful for is God’s timing.

He knew the moment TGC published this article would be the exact moment I needed to be reminded of the glorious truths of our Fear Fighter. I need this reality more than anything.

It is my prayer that through these words your heart would be energized by the love of the One who casts out every anxiety our mind could strum up.

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When Fears Come True: The Corrie ten Boom Story

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Corrie ten Boom was no stranger to fear.

When World War II broke out and the German Blitzkrieg’s “Nazification” of the Dutch people escalated in May 1940, the ten Boom family home in Haarlem, Amsterdam, became a refuge for many. Jews, members of the Dutch underground resistance movement, students, and intellectuals alike were warmly welcomed into the home above the ten Boom watch shop, where they were treated as part of the family and given food, the Word of God, and a community unified by the desire for freedom.

Before long, the safe house was slightly remodeled and a secret room was built into Corrie’s upstairs bedroom to harbor refugees when the Gestapo would illegally and forcibly search homes.

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When Fear Guards Your Heart Instead of God

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God is an expert wall-destroyer, isn’t He?

I’m not just talking about Jericho or Jerusalem or when King Uzziah broke through the Philistines’ walls (Joshua 6:20, Isaiah 22:5, 2 Chronicles 26:6); I’m talking about the walls we build around our hearts.

Few cities are walled nowadays, but at times our hearts—the epicenter of our person—can be more fortified than Jericho ever was. God loves to break down those walls.

Over the last year God has kicked down a few heart-protecting bricks in my life, and in the process, revealed layers of fear and insecurities I didn’t know existed as they were pushed safely behind carefully constructed defensive barricades.

This unveiling has led to a lot of prayer, a lot of Scripture-searching, and a lot of questions. Why do I put up walls? Why these fears? Why fear at all? What is the root of this?

To answer those questions, we have to go back.

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Monday Morning Munch No. 140 – Do you resist good things? I do.

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I resist good things. 

That’s what I learned about myself this week.
For real. And, yes, it’s as ridiculous as it sounds.

It goes back to what I’m finding a lot of things in my life go back to: fear.

I’m afraid I’ll love things too much (more than God).
I’m afraid I’ll love people too much and then God will take them away from me because I love them more than Him.
I’m afraid I’ll find too much pleasure in things that aren’t eternal and somehow dishonor God because if I were really following Him I wouldn’t even desire any of these “lesser” things.

The low-grade guilt over enjoying good things is real.

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Monday Morning Munch No. 139 – Fighting Fears

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Fear = an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.

What is it about fears that so easily ensnares us?

The last six months have brought with it a significant amount of joy, a significant amount of challenges and a significant amount of exposure to pretty much every fear-related thing in my heart. There’s been lots of tearing down, lots of pruning and lots of learning to deal with fear.

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Monday Morning Munch No. 133 – God hates suffering

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Bad things are happening all around us. 

Terrorism. Heartache. Suffering. Loss. The weight of each inscrutable.

Then we have Christmas, which seems like the opposite end of the spectrum. Christmas brings joy. Celebration. Music. Love. The weight of each delightful.

But Christmas is not the opposite of pain and these two camps aren’t competing. Rather, Christmas gives us pause and a reminder to endure this disgusting world poisoned by sin because we have One who endured for us.

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Monday Morning Munch No. 125 – When fear yells at you

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This has successfully wrecked me for three days now. 

May the wrecking never cease.

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Monday Morning Munch No. 123 – What’s the worst that could happen?

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What’s the worst that could happen?

If you love, really love, somebody enough to be the truest you for them?

They could reject you.
Squash your heart.
Hurt you.
Leave you bruised.
Make you cry.
Take advantage of your vulnerability.

If those things happen, are they any less deserving of your love and authentic, masks-off self?

For far too long my twisted logic has been to love people when they prove they deserve it.

Let’s just take a minute and let that conceit and selfishness soak in.

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When I want to hide in fear

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When the unknowns of life flare into fear, I find myself running and trying to hide [like Adam and Eve in the Garden] not in but from the wounds of Christ.

And all the while…

The One from whom nothing is hidden has providentially orchestrated all the unknowns in our lives to push us to Him.

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